Her
I hate my life, I should have known
That you'd love her, leave me, alone
Why I ever thought you'd love me
I, myself will never know
Drowning in my tears of pain
I try not to let it show
I know it's not her fault you love
her
But I can't hide my hate for her right now
I've lived in her shadow for as long as I remember
Alone, unloved, yet surviving somehow
When she told me that you still loved
her
I thought I'd die right there and then
The happiness in her voice, a knife
Cutting through my soul, my skin
I didn't realize how much I loved you
The pain I felt was strong, disabling
All I could see was the smile on her face
The anger, ripping, tearing, nauseating
I know I won't stop loving you ever
No matter how much I cry
I don't know if I can ever forgive her
No matter how hard I try
Sitting here now I don't know how to
feel
Sadness, Hatred, Despair, I'm not sure
Why does this always happen to me
This is a pain that no one deserves
© 1999 Lindsay
Yurcaba
